ARRUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGH that explains the storms we’ve been having and all the wind, huh? But wow knowing that I should uhhhh look up and make sure Dustin’s family is okay cos they’re all in Oklahoma and LAST TIME OKLAHOMA HAD DEVASTATING TORNADOES his brother and sister-in-law’s house was destroyed
(their new house is really fucking gorgeous)
BUT MAN MY ENTIRE LIFE HAS BEEN IN FUCKING TORNADO ALLEY AND I LOATHE IT SO MUCH DUDE LIKE :’((((((
TORNADO SIRENS INSTILL IN ME A PANIC LIKE NOTHING ELSE HAS BEFORE OMG ;A;
<3333333 but yes I am okay! \o/ Just wind and rain here! :3
(bless you and your concern I love you :3 <333)
AUUUUGH RIGHT???? All itty bitty and squirmy and just :’3333
like I’m so weak to kittens it’s stupid. One of my faaaavorite things is when they’re still small enough they can fit in my palm but they can run around and are starting to eat kitty food and just oh GOSH :’))))))
THEY’RE SUCH A DELIGHT AND IT MAKES MY HEART HURT ;A; :’(
I WISH I COULD GIVE YOU ONE WHEN THEY’RE ALL READY :’( I definitely can’t keep five kittens plus Keesha and Zara, rofl :’(
BUT GOSH THEY’RE SO CUTE AND DARLING AND AKJFKLAJA BAAAAAAAABIES and I just get so paranoid and worried and am trying to convince myself sleeping on the couch to watch over them is very dumb because MOMMY CATS CAN DO THEIR JOB ASHLIE
but oh GOSH they’re so lovely
You’re so dumb I love you so much oh my gosh I’m publishing this one cos I need to have it in my blog so I can look at it when I feel dumb and stupid like this omg :’(((( <3
I’ve never played Roboto Unicorn Attack or whatever, so I had to go to YouTube to hear the song lmao
THIS IS THE MOST FUCKING RIDICULOUS THING IN THE WORLD LMFAOOOO WHAT THE HELL LMAOOOOOOO HOWLING HELP
(okay okay opening that one fetus of mine the St. Claire one let’s see what I can dooooo)
Dory: Something someone has told you that you can’t forget (two good things and one bad)
Oh crap, this is actually hard, hmmmmm. There’s a lot of things. Like. I’m not great at memorizing history dates or math formulas, but I can remember things people told me in the past - especially through like, middle school?
But I mean. I guess as far as BAD things go, I don’t think I’m ever going to be able to shake my sister telling me our asshole father left her and mom, and the awful calm way she said it, despite how obvious it was she’d been crying.
But gosh I’VE BEEN TOLD SO MANY GOOD THINGS I CAN’T FORGET. :|
I guess one is my third grade teacher telling me that one day, she’ll walk into a bookstore and find an entire shelf dedicated to books written by me, which was sort of the fuel to my burning passion regarding writing for a long, long, long time.
And I can remember every time my college teachers would compliment me during class on something I’d written for the newspaper, which is kind of really dumb, I realize, but there was something about it that made me super proud as FUCK.
(But gosh I’ve got so many compliments locked away in my head because when I’m in my grossest of bad places, that’s what I go to first. alfjdalkfdlka)
No man, that was messy as HELLLLLL lmao I just.
LOOK. 9TH GRADE WAS SUUUUCH A MESSY TIME FOR ME but at the same time I really loved it? It was the only part of high school I can say I TRULY ever loved, because that was before I moved and before I spiraled into a dark pit of gloom and back when I had friends and a super active social life.
(LMAO okay that makes it sound like I had no friends in Conway Springs which is not true, but it was very, very different.)
The point is. 9th grade takes me back to that ugly navy blue bedroom while I wailed emo lyrics before I knew what emo was, when I thought I was ~cool~ cos I hung out with the punks and druggie~ kids, when I was busy exploring who the hell Ashlie was and wanted to be and it was really bad (I didn’t do great in school cos I was too busy trying to socialize and figure myself out~~ and it’s when I first REALLY began to deal with my late nights and all that jazz)
It was just ridic and it makes me feel squishy inside and ridiculously enough, just by association, stupid Good Charlotte reminds me of the homecoming dance sophomore year that my friends had to sneak me into because my school didn’t have student IDs and I wore a skirt and felt kinda sexy and it was fantastic and stupid James had reappeared out of literally NOWHERE and he still did the most awful things to my ladybits.
SPIRALING. CAN’T EVEN HELP MYSELF omfg
nOOOO NO DON’T OMFG LAST NIGHT I WAS IN THE BATHROOM AND I FOUND MYSELF SINGING TO MYSELF “GIRLS DON’T LIKE BOYS GIRLS LIKE CARS AND MONEY” AND I FROZE LIKE WTF WHERE DID THAT COME FROM???
AND I DON’T EVER WANNA BE LIKE YOU, I DON’T WANNA DO THE THINGS YOU DO, I’M NEVER GONNA HEAR THE WORDS YOU SAY
AND I DON’T EVER
I DON’T EVER WANNA BE
DON’T WANNA BE JUST LIKE YOU
WHAT I’M SAYING IS THIS IS THE ANTHEM THROW ALL YOUR HANDS UP
DON’T WANNA BE YOU
nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo GIRL I AM ROLLING IN THE FUCKING 9TH GRADE FEELS NOW IN FACT LIKE LAFJDLKJFADLKJ THIS TOOK ME STRAIGHT BACK TO MY FUCKING NAVY BLUE BEDROOM AND THE DAY I OPENED MY LOCKER AND FOUND THE CD IN THERE WITH JASON MRAZ AND JOHN MAYER AS A GIFT FROM ABBEY AND SHE HAD MY LOCKER COMBO AND SURPRISED ME WITH THEM AND SITTING AFTER SWIMMING PE WITH MY HAIR WET AND CHLORINATED WITH MY STUPID PORTABLE CD PLAYER JAMMING TO FUCKING
I’M GOING TO CRY
WHY DID YOU OPEN THIS FUCKING CAN OF WORMS
I WOULD LAY IN MY STUPID TOP BUNK BED IN MY STUPID NAVY BLUE BEDROOM WORKING MY PRE-EMO TEENAGE ANGST
NEVER LOSE YOUR ANTHEM
NEVER LOSE YOUR ANTHEM
GONNA FUCKING /CRY/
I love you <3
LET’S BE FAIR
KHUNNIE AND I ARE THE SAME AGE. HE IS A FEW MONTHS OLDER THAN ME. I MEAN OKAY SO HE’S A GENTLEMAN TO A FUCKING T AND THAT MAKES ME SWOON LIKE CRAZY OKAY I AM SOOOOOO FUCKING ATTRACTED TO GENTLEMANLY KHUNNIE BUT JESUS NO
HE KNOWS HOW TO WORK THE SEXY OKAY? HE’S NOT THAT NAIVE MAYBE HE’S GORGEOUS AND GENTLEMANLY AND SWEET AND ALFJKDALFJAK PEEEEERFECT BUT HE’S SO SEXY WHEN HE WANTS TO BE OKAY????
I’M GONNA OGLE ALL I WANT :’( YOU CAN’T STOP ME BE A GOOD DONGSAENG AND ENCOURAGE MY FASCINATION HE CLEARLY IS :’)))))
This is, admittedly, better suited for my TS3 blog, but anyway, I AM SORRY BUT I AM LAUGHING AND WHO WOUND UP DYING? WAS IT GRAYSON??? IT MUST’VE BEEN I CAN’T IMAGINE EMMY RANTING ABOUT DEATH OH MY GOD WAS HE /PROTESTING/ DEATH?????
OF COURSE DEATH WOULD COME FOR HIM. THE GRIM REAPER DOESN’T TAKE KINDLY TO THAT LAJFDLAJ LMFAOOOOOOO OMFGGGG
THAT’S AWFUL OH MY GOSH.
(Did you know tho that unlucky and clumsy sims who die at the hands of their unluckiness and clumsiness are often given life again because Death PITIES THEM AND FINDS THEM ENTERTAINING????)
(Death has some problems - his immortality being one of them.)
I hope you don’t mind publishing this, but I’m am shameless and like to collect sweet messages from people in my blog that way on the days I feel entirely undeserving of them, I can go through and look at them. <3333 You are so, so sweet and have always been so lovely to me and I thank you so much for that. <3 I thoroughly enjoy having you around/in my life and alfkjdlkjfaldjajk corny mushy gibberish here because I did not know until I saw this message just how much I needed that. <3
I…. alkfjdklajd I like LISTENING to VIXX (tho… I’m not super keen on their rapper? idk I DON’T LIKE THE WAY HE DOES IT :/????? It’s like U-Kiss’s Eli; I don’t care for his style, either.)
BUT I DO LIKE /LISTENING/ TO VIXX? I’ve watched their videos (and admittedly laughed a lot at the last ones cos I have no idea WHAT the hell was going on) (Don’t apply logic to kpop MVs omg)
BUT YEAH I LIKE LISTENING? THEY’VE GOT SOME /REALLY/ CATCHY, GROOVY STUFF. The only one who’s name I know is the rapper (I think) (I’m recalling it as Ravi but I could be wrong now oh no) so I’m not sure who Leo isssss but I WILL GO LOOK HIM UP! Cos all I know from VIXX is their MVs so. D: NOT A LOT TO GO ON, ACTUALLY.
But \o/ thank you for the recommendation! omg I like getting recs even though I listen to a lot more than I blog? BUT OBVS my main ~fandoms~ (if you will) are def B1A4, Infinite, U-KISS, 2PM, MBLAQ, C.N. Blue, and Miss A. Cos a lot of the rest I just… know their music and not really THEM. (Sorry, F.T. Island, but to this day, I STILL struggle to figure out who the hell is how) (and l o l Led Apple YOU AND ALL YOUR MEMBER SWITCHES HOW AM I TO EVER LEARN omfg)
I have slowly been getting into it because my friend Michelle is a huge, huge, HUUUUUUGE Pittsburgh Penguins stan and she is always fangirling/ranting hockey at me and it was sort of an either YOU JUST SMILE AND NOD situation or TRY TO LEARN SO YOU CAN TALK WITH HER so I went with the latter option and!!!!!! :DDDD
so I’ve been slowly getting into it and stuff! \o/
(I actually really like sporty things but usually more in a group? like by myself I don’t tend to get into it but when things like the Olympics and the World Cup roll around, yasssss! Or I’d watch college basketball back in college with my friends even tho my best friend and I supported rival teams and she didn’t speak to me the next day after my team beat hers EVEN THO KSU BEATING KU ON THEIR OWN HOME COURT WAS SOMETHING THAT HADN’T HAPPENED IN YEEEEAAAAAAARS AND IT WAS A SUCH A BIG DEAL!!!1!!!11 AND I COULDN’T EVEN FANGIRL IT WITH HER OR MOST OF MY FRIENDS COS EVERYONE I KNEW SUPPORTED ONLY KU!!!!!! aklfjda /rambles sports)
SHUT UP I DO NOT INTEND TO INSULT/OFFEND YOU AND YOUR HOMELAND OMGGGG ALFKJDKALJ rofl I didn’t catch it :’( I keep doing this thing where I hit the back arrow instead of the down arrow and wind up losing half my tag. (In the last response to you, you nearly became snowfl but I CAUGHT THAT ONE)
Also, was meaning to tell you! So I was reblogging that gr8 gif of Crosby making his gr8 goal and Dustin asked what I was looking at, so I mentioned the Penguins and APPARENTLY HIS SERGEANT BRO THAT HE’S ALWAYS WITH IS A PITTSBURGH PENGUINS FAN. Actually, he’s also apparently FROM Pittsburgh, so!!!!!!!!
I THOUGHT YOU WOULD BE PLEASED WITH THAT LITTLE TIDBIT! :D
-sets out cookies for your sneaking-
IT IS THO, ISN’T IT???? Every time he ugly cries (because he does, omg with his face all twisted up and frowny and sobby) EVERYTHING INSIDE ME GOES WIBBLY AND SOFT AND I WANT TO HOLD HIM TO MY BOSOM) like omggg when Infinite surprised him for his birthday? And he just WAS SO OVERWHELMED HE GROSS SOBBED ALL OVER
Baby. Baby please. <3
AND WHEN INFINITE HAD THEIR FIRST MUSIC SHOW WIN AND LIKE, HALF OF INFINITE JUST STARTED MESSY CRYING EVERYWHERE (and I watched the video and started messy crying MYSELF omfg)
You look like you’re falling apart sweetheart omfg you’re so precious let me hold you.
AND IDK WHAT THIS ONE EVEN IS BUT WHEN HE CRIES I WANT TO FOLD HIM INTO ME AND HOLD HIM UNTIL HE CALMS DOWN ALL THE WHILE TELLING HIM SHHH IT’S OKAY YOU CAN CRY IT’S OKAY BABY
idk what’s going on but that last one is SERIOUSLY BREAKING MY HEART
anyway we probably shouldn’t question why I have gifs of crying Dongwoo and instead can agree that Dongwoo crying is JUST SO CUTE :’( and HE’S SO DARLING AND WONDERFUL and brings LIGHT TO MY LIFE and stuff and
I’M SO GLAD YOU CAME TO MY INBOX WITH THIS MESSAGE DO YOU WANNA HUG? WE CAN HUG
p.s. you totes don’t have sneak omg *u*
I just started crying in the nicest way because this is one of the nicest things anyone has said about me lately and alkfjdlkajfdakdk I don’t have words because I just want to hug you while I weep okay??? alkfjdlkaj unless you don’t want me to get my tears on you then that’s okay.
thank you so so so much for this omg <333