"Jem’s knees gave out, and he sank to the trunk at the foot of his bed, still playing. He played Will breathing the name Cecily, and he played himself watching the glint of his own ring on Tessa’s hand on the train from York, knowing it was all a charade, knowing, too, that he wished that it wasn’t. He played the sorrow in Tessa’s eyes when she had come into the music room after Will had told her she would never have children. Unforgivable, that, what a thing to do, and yet Jem had forgiven him. Love was forgiveness, he had always believed that, and the things that Will did, he did out of some bottomless well of pain. Jem did not know the source of that pain, but he knew it existed and was real, knew it as he knew of the inevitability of his own death, knew it as he knew that he had fallen in love with Tessa Gray and that there was nothing he or anyone else could do about it."
JESUS CHRIST WHY IS THIS ON MY DASH
that awkward moment when you start crying over Jem x Tessa feels…
;~~~~~; ugh it’s too adorable
Jem! My beautiful Jem and his violin!
In honor of this fabulous piece of art, I’ve put up one of the bits of special content from Clockwork Prince: Burning Bright. Jem’s meeting with Tessa in Clockwork Angel from his point of view.
For that was what love was, wasn’t it — to burn bright in someone else’s eyes?
And another request! Jem ;3; beautiful Jem.
I can never decide who to root for. Jem is so sweet and genuine but Will has spent all his life suffering and he needs love too! AUGH!!
…..but.
Has Jem not suffered AS WELL??????
(but this artwork is beautiful)
(Jem is beautiful)
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DIGGING THIS WHO DID THEY USE FOR WILL AND JEM????
Cassandra Clare posted a link to my post about white-washing Jem and it’s not even a great post and oh my god she read it she actually read it holy crap you guys HOLY CRAP!!!!!!!!!!!!
Forever shipping TessaxJem
Tis true
alohomorashlie replied to your post: alohomorashlie replied to your post: you could use…
I miss all my TID feels but like. :( I donno. WHEN THE BOOK COMES OUT I KNOW I’LL BE ALL OVER AGAIN, Y’KNOW? It’s just what more is there right now without being overly repetitive? D: and the aching feeels :(YES ME TOO AND EVERYONE WILL UNFOLLOW ME BUT I DUNN CARE. I feel like we’ve cross-analyzed CP to the point that there’s nothing else to say hahaha. When CoLS comes out (since I’ll have to read that too sighh) there’ll be like, a minor crossing-back for me but not too serious. But gosh I miss fangirling over Jemmy-boo ;__;
I totally get that! I mean, I still have my sudden Jem fangirling moments, too, cos you know. HE IS JEM AND L O L HOW CAN I GET OVER HIM right? But I agree. Sometimes I feel like I’ve been over it so much that it’s all repetitious and there’s nothing more I can DISCOVER because we’ve basically gone over all the possibilities and usually it leaves me filled with inevitable heartbreak because THE SERIES CANNOT END HAPPY not in a way that leaves EVERYONE happy and honestly no matter who lives or dies I think I’m going to be left feeling bitter/melancholy.
Like.
I JUST REALLY WANT CP2 NOW and at the same time I want to prolong all the feeeels. But uh, I’m not really ~excited for CoLS, and I know I’ve talked about it before, but I’m just not INTO TMI the way I am ID - especially this second trilogy. I can’t handle how TMI I feels like it’s soooo much shipping where, yes yes I am aware ID rather is, too, but it feels like there’s a more encompassing plot.
Or maybe it’s because I don’t much care for Clary and Jace.
EITHER WAY.
JEM.
JEM FOREVER. *__________*
(And man it’s not like we can ever discard ID, when it’s what brought us together in the first place!!!!)
I am at the point where my list of potential models for Jem is by far surpassed by my I WISH PEOPLE WOULD STOP USING YOU FOR JEM CARSTAIRS list.
And it’s ridiculous because I am so picky but ugh I just want it to feel canonical to me and I still don’t think I have found anyone I really like for him.
Jaejoong is still probably my top pic just because he has those slight features, that almost aristocratic appearance, the ethereal beauty(as opposed to handsomeness), he doesn’t look common, he doesn’t look necessarily incredibly approachable.. But something about him still doesn’t seem entirely right to me.
And there are times where I go L O L LEE HYUN JAE because when his hair is short I can kind of see it because he’s already mixed and has the slightness and a FANTASTIC smile.
But I think those are my only two.
And I also think I really need to start looking into actual Chinese sometime because I feel really bad that my own castings for Jem Carstairs are KOREAN and I’m not doing it because YEAH ALL ASIANS LOOK ALIKE but simply because that’s all I really KNOW D:
POINT IS MAN THERE ARE A LOT OF PEOPLE I CAN NEVER SEE AS JEM NOW, THOUGH.
Stelesy, I just wanted to say I love the work you do with these. The unique color choice, the way you pick their poses so they feel all cohesive and stuff. The way you try out different actors for your graphics. A solid selection for Will, a unique pick for Jem, a totally different sort of Tessa just for kicks…
You rock. That is all.
oh, gidge. always making me feel so accomplished and talented. thank you. :3
yeah, i’m definitely not attached to any particular actors when it comes to tid graphic making. there are some actors/singers/models i prefer, but sometimes they just don’t have the pictures i need for a certain graphic. i think it helps that i don’t have a “dream cast” because i’ve noticed that once an artist settles on that, he/she tends to be reluctant to use anyone else. which i find very limiting.
IT’S KEVIN WOO!!!!!!!!!!
OH MY GOD IT’S KEVIN WOO!!!!!!!
CAN’T EVEN DECIDE HOW I FEEL ABOUT THIS BECAUSE I SEE HIS FACE AND I JUST GO “IT’S KEVIN WOO!!!!! BE MY BESTIE KEVIN! KEVIN WOO IS MY SPIRIT ANIMAL!!!!” I mean. He has the delicate features that Jem should have and he’s PRETTY (even if Kevin Woo is prettier than all the girls) WHICH IS PRETTY FAIR AND RIGHT.
BUT.
I MEAN.
IT’S KEVIN WOO AND MY BRAIN IS STILL TRYING TO SETTLE ON THAT (and maybe it also goes BUT WHERE IS ELI? lol brain stop this stop this right now)
BUT I’M AT LEAST HAPPY HE’S ASIAN because still forever annoyed with all the non-Asians.
AND I’M LIKE. MAN. HE’S SO FITTING.
BUT AT THE SAME TIME I’M LIKE
IT’S K E V I N W O O
and I keep looking at him and going YES THIS IS THE REAL KEVIN FROM U-KISS ^♥^ GOD BLESS and I keep giggling ugh omg self c’mon get it together
(JESUS YOU’RE SO PRETTY KEVIN WHY ARE YOU SO PRETTY HOW ARE YOU SO PRETTY I CANNOT EVEN AT ALL OMG OMG OMG)
(WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO COME TAKE ANGIE AND I SHOPPING KEVIN???)
(OKAY SHUTTING UP NOW THIS IS ALL PRETTY I PROMISE AND I’M NOT HATING ON KEVIN, I NEED YOU GUYS TO KNOW THAT.)
(IT’S JUST. IT’S KEVIN WOO!!!!!!!!)
(Who is Tessa she is pretty *o*)
Jem deserves Tessa, but Will needs her.
I have seen that a couple of times now in the tags, and you know what? I don’t like looking at relationships as “deserves, and needs.” Because then that’s just like saying, “Jem deserves that car, but Will needs it.” To me that statement is portrayed as Tessa being an object that should be owned. Tessa is not property or an object, she is a girl.
Yes Will has been through a lot, heck he’s been through hell and back on a lie. But does he really need Tessa? To help him through his lost, of years, and of lies he said? No. He has Jem, his parabatai, and now he has Cecily. People may think Will needs Tessa, but I think readers also forget that there are other people in his life that love him all the same. That can help him, if he opens up to them and lets them in.
After thinking he had this curse on him for years, pushing away the people he loves, I would like to see Will make a connection to said people. I think it would be healthy for him, and it would get his mind off of Tessa and Jem—even if it was for a moment.
What Will really needs is to know that Jem, Charlotte, Henry, even Tessa (but not really) and I’m sure Cecily, still love him. That he hasn’t crushed it by pushing them away in the first place.
That’s what Will needs.
And Jem? Jem deserves a lot of things in life. A cure, his parents. But again saying he deserves Tessa makes me think that just because he is dying he should get Tessa.
What Jem deserves is happiness, for what little time he has left. Everyone deserves that type of happiness before dying. And I believe that happiness could come from being with the girl he loves, who loves him back, and have his brother along side him.
What I’m trying to say is, Jem deserves happiness and Will needs to know that the people he pushed away still love him.
Well said, ol’ chap!
Ugh gross the need vs deserves. Deserves makes her sound like a damn PRIZE and NEED makes her sound like a necessity and one should never, EVER be a necessity, because what should do you do in the absence of her then, huh?
joshmellarkk replied to your post: WHAT. WHAT. JEMS POV OF THE BED SCENE. WHAT. I DIDN’T. WHERE DO I GO?!?! ASHLIE. HELP. D:
I READ IT. it was so beautiful i can’t even put my feels into words. just. fnjeihrqabifpcvheiopopvihrepiwsbhophtriyhbohetwroiyjhbe
Oh my god basically, right? I tried to be eloquent about it earlier and basically dissolved into a lot of internet gibberish because that is the only way to get any kind of point across, I guess. I mean. There are A LOT of feels, too. Because Jem is just fantastic and he’s so tragic and it PAINS me and at the same time he is incredibly beautiful and there IS some sense of beauty in his pain and tragedy and I just want to gather him against me and hold him and protect him except. You know. :| Impending death and he has ACCEPTED it and he’s SO FRANK about it and he doesn’t delude himself into believing he can be saved except
except
now he’s fallen in love and it makes it so much more painful.
BECAUSE HOW CAN HE EASILY LEAVE THIS EARTH WHEN HE KNOWS HE WILL LEAVE TESSA BEHIND?
Before, he was living for WILL. To be the pillar Will needed, to be the person who saw unwavering good in him, to be the one who was on Will’s side when the world turned against him. And he would have been able to rest easy knowing he’d done all he could for Will, and hoping maybe he could make a difference in Will’s life.
But now he hasTessaand he wants tomarryher and he wants to share the last beats of his heart with her and he feels soselfishbecause how cruel is he to take her heart and make it his, to take her hand in a marriage guaranteed to be short, to leave her widowed and heart broken when the inevitable occurs.
AND IT JUST MAKES ME /HURT/ FOR HIM. BECAUSE HE WILL NEVER LIVE A NORMAL LIFE AND HE FEELS SO GUILTY BUT HE’S IN /LOVE/ AND HOW CAN HE DENY THE LOVE HE NEVER EXPECTED TO RECEIVE. HE NEVER THOUGHT HE WOULD FALL IN LOVE OR THAT ANYONE COULD LOVE HIM. HE /WANTED/ WHAT HIS PARENTS HAD, BUT HE KNEW IT COULD NEVER HAPPEN. THAT HE WOULD LEAVE THIS EARTH TOO SOON ANYWAY.
AND NOW HE’S IN LOVE AND HE’S DYING BUT HE WANTS HER IN A WAY HE HAS NEVER WANTED ANYTHING BEFORE AND IT’S DESPERATE AND IT LACKS HONOR AND HE’S TRYING, BY THE ANGEL HE’S TRYING (AND MAYBE THEY DO NEED A CHAPERONE) BUT HOW CAN HE RESIST WHEN HIS LIFE WILL BE OVER ANY MINUTE NOW?
AND I’M JUST SITTING HERE LIKE:
What do we do with these feels? ;A;
blazefiresaber inquired: "Ashlie. Have you read Jem's POV of the DSBedS? Because I just did and I CAN'T LIVE ANYMORE. EVER. MY HEART HAS EXPLODED. Q~Q"DID I EVER ;A; LMAO I was laying down for a nap cos I’d been up since 2:30 a.m. and my eyes were all scritchy scratchy and I was going through tweetdeck before I actually fell asleep and then I saw C.C.s tweet and afljdlfkjaskdfjafkaj THE NAP HAD TO WAIT OF COURSE BECAUSE HOW LONG HAVE WE BEEN WAITING FOR THAT SCENE? HOW LONG HAD WE BEEN WAITING FOR HIS POV OF THAT CHAPTER? WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUGH
AND IT WAS FANTASTIC
AND I ROLLED AROUND IN MY BED
AND MADE WEIRD NOISES
BECAUSE OH MY GOD ;A;
AND IT WAS LOVE
MY HEART EXPLODED PROBABLY ALONGSIDE YOURS
AND NOW I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO
BECAUSE I KNOW CLOCKWORK PRINCESS IS ONLY GOING TO RIP OUT MY HEART AND SHRED IT AND STOMP ALL OVER IT AND THEN MY SOUL IS GOING TO GET WRUNG OUT UNTIL IT IS EMPTY AND LISTLESS AND WILL BE SHREDDED AND TRODDEN UPON AS WELL AND UGGGGH SOB SOB SOBBING
WHAT DO WE DO NOW VIDA? WHAT DO WE DO NOW?!
